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Living as the Lord’s Followers

“We have everything we need to live a life that pleases God. It was all given to us by God’s own power, when we learned that he had invited us to share in his wonderful goodness. God made great and marvelous promises, so that his nature would become part of us. Then we could escape our evil desire and the corrupt influences of this world.

Do your best to improve your faith. You can do this by adding goodness, understanding, self-control, patience, devotion to God, concern for others, and love.”

– 2 Peter 1:3-7 (CEV)

Happy 2014! 🙂

Insights (Part 2)

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Thank you for following my blog post about Frozen! Well, this is only the SECOND so maybe I must type “blog post” instead.  Again, be warned that this post contains SPOILERS. In this post, I’ll focus on Anna! If you weren’t able to read my blog post about Elsa, here is the link: https://whoismaria.wordpress.com/2013/12/31/insights-part-1/

About Anna… Princess Anna of Arandelle. She was the one who lost her bad memory with Elsa. She’s such a happy person. When their parents died, she was the one who supported her sister. I’ll focus on her heroic feats in the movie including her defeat in her love life.

When Anna said “Yes” to the Prince, I was also surprised that she said it right away when he proposed to her. She insisted on her want to marry him so Elsa and she had an argument. She was too excited for the gates to be opened. She was too excited to meet new people and to find true love (ughh… Disney Movies with princesses in it). Oh, well. At times, I’m like her too. I can’t wait. I’m too excited, forgetting that patience is really a virtue not only in love, but also in so many things. I tend to forget that the best things in life are worth waiting for. Look, God waited for us. He’s so patient with us. He doesn’t force us to come back to Him, but instead, He waited. Anna’s attitude also made Kristoff question her sudden feeling of love towards the Prince. It’s funny, but it’s true most especially for us, girls. Such sweet words from a guy can make our heart fall for him right away. It can be true for most of the girls, but of course, I’m not stereotyping my kind. Finding a guy who thinks like you think, who seems to understand you right away, who acts like you do can be easy but love isn’t all about it. Love is unfair in our eyes but not in the Author of Love’s eyes. Okay, I’m sounding like a love guru, and I hate it.

What I loved about the movie is also Anna’s relationship with her sister, Elsa. True love doesn’t always mean a guy and girl relationship. It’s also about your relationship with your family. Love is found in every relationship we have in our life: with our friends, family, relatives, colleague, schoolmates, and even strangers. Anna fought her way through the cold mountain where they found Olaf, the snowman Elsa built when they were still kids that came to life when they’re older. She endured the cold snow to reach her sister’s own-made palace to talk to her. Isn’t that sweet? It’s not your ordinary movie where a princess needs a prince charming to save her. Instead, it was her sister who endured all those hardships.

At the end of the movie, Anna didn’t choose her “true love” over her sister’s life. She chose to save her sister’s life. And when she melted in her sister’s embrace, Olaf said that it’s an act of true love. It made me realize that true love isn’t only about couples. It’s also about your family and friends. After that, Elsa learned to control her “curse”, making it as a “gift” for her and for the people around her. She learned that love is the answer to control it and to be really free: free from the guilt of the past, free from her fear of not being able to control her power, and free from the storm raging in her heart. Love frees us. It warms a cold heart. It saves the day. Love understands. In the end, it is all about love.

Insights (Part 1)

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Let me warn you that this post may have SPOILERS. Spoiler alert! If you haven’t watched the film yet, I highly encourage you to watch it first before reading this post. But if you insist, it’s okay with me. It’s your choice. Do I sound angry?

FROZEN! It’s such a great movie not because everybody else watched it. I really hated it when everyone watches a movie and says that it’s so epic, it’s so amazing, it’s so great, and then I’d start watching it too. It feels as if I’m a curious girl who also wants to watch what they watched. It’s just that when I watched the trailer and found lots of snow, I became interested to watch it. I really love winter because I’m a December Baby. So, for this post, let me focus on Elsa.

I was able to relate with Anna’s sister, Elsa, who knows how to cast an “eternal winter” in her should-be kingdom, Arandelle. She always says that it’s a “curse”, not realizing that it can also be a gift. Okay, that sounded like Yellowcard’s “Gifts and Curses”. The part when she built her own kingdom in an isolated place atop the North Mountain, struck my heart. Elsa’s solo was so emotional, it touched my heart. I related myself with her, honestly. Like me, I also built my own kingdom where I thought I can grow, where I think I can control and let go of the storm raging within me.

When people knew that she has powers, they thought she was a monster when the truth is she really isn’t. Anna said, “No, she’s still my sister.” At times, people really think that we’re monsters if we can’t control what’s within us, right? Like when we’re so angry and out of control, we tend to be so frustrated and it’s as if we also become a monster. But someone who knows us better, someone who loves us and understands us won’t say that we’re monsters. That someone will say to you, “No, you are not a monster. You are … *insert your name here*, and you’re not a monster. I know you. I understand you.”

In Elsa’s song, “Let It Go”, there’s a lyrics that said, “I don’t care what they’re going to say”. Sometimes, when we say this, we also have to be extra careful to the freedom we thought we have. I keep saying that to myself too. There’s nothing really wrong with this sentence… except when someone who really cares for you or concerned about you wants you to listen, yet you’re still stuck with your own world, saying “I don’t care what you’re going to say.” When we feel so free, we tend to forget others’ happiness. We tend to be self-centered, thinking that we can do this alone; thinking that we are so powerful and in control of our life. But the truth is, deep inside within us, there’s a storm raging in our hearts. We are so focused on ourselves and on our potentials we forget what’s right and wrong. I don’t know about you, but I’m like that. Yes, it is fun to discover what we can do, but too much of ourselves is too unhealthful for us.

Elsa became too fed up from her past: her parents wanting her to hide her power and her need to hide from her sister for the past not to happen again (to protect her sister from her… so sad). She doesn’t want to cover up anymore, so she started to be “herself”. Another thing, “being yourself” is too dangerous as an advice too. I tried it. I keep failing. I already don’t know who I really am. I don’t know but I became like this as I followed this advice. I found identity in myself ALONE. It’s hard. It keeps you empty when you don’t know where to look for your identity.

Another part of the movie where Elsa and Anna met in Elsa’s Ice Palace, Elsa told Anna that she can’t control the “curse”, and she can’t let go of the fear that she can’t control it. See? At first, she was singing that she CAN. Like she kept singing “Let It Go” but she ended up failing, being worse, and hurting her sister again. Elsa didn’t want to listen to Anna, making her (Elsa) so confused in what to do. She wanted to be free but she can’t. She’s trying to find the answers by being alone, but she really can’t. Anna was the only one who can help her but Elsa’s heart was too “frozen” and cold; she refused to ask for help. She refused to listen. It’s so like me. I tend to refuse to listen to the people who truly care for me, ending up hurting myself and feeling the guilt even more.

Okay, that’s it. This post had too much for Elsa. She’s so awesome and pretty, I want to be like her. Kidding aside! Those were my thoughts about her. Thanks for reading!

2013

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December has been an epic month for me so far. Why did I describe it as “epic”? Okay.. I’d rather say amazing to sound.. Nahh. It’s still epic.

I’ve been thinking about posting in my blog about who I really am: my mess, my selfishness, all about ME. A lot of confessions about how much I’m in dire need of a Savior, how much I need God. But thinking about it, why not post it TODAY?

This year had a lot of emotional and spiritual roller coasters. It has been a chaotic roller coaster ride. I think I was already drowned by my own wrongdoings. That’s how I pictured my year. DROWNED. I became so proud of myself, thinking that I can do this alone. I believed in myself. Believing in yourself is good, except when you became too proud of yourself. It’s unhealthful.

Isn’t it hard to accept that you’re too weak? That you sin a lot? That you really need people in your life who can help you? Fear simply stops me from opening up about my problems because I’m afraid they might think that I’m such a sinful person. Yes, everyone’s sinful but sometimes, we tend to think that another person is more sinful than the other one. We’re so blind to see that all of us have sinned and fall short of the glory of God (http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Romans+3:23). I mean, we already know it, but we still need to be reminded by the Holy Spirit over and over because I believe that we’re too forgetful. That’s (our) my usual sickness.

This year, I experienced a lot of DOWNS. Well maybe, I only focus on those circumstances I fell down on my knees, struggling and crying. Yes, that’s me. I usually focus on the negative side. I stopped smiling always. I stopped fooling around and started being honest. VERY HONEST. I sometimes think that being way too honest hurts too. But when I do, I become too confused about how I really feel: am I simply being honest or am I fooling myself and the people around me already? I can’t go on talking about this part of myself this year since it’s becoming too complicated. I laughed at myself. Haha.

I learned that experiencing struggles and pain in life isn’t just about the sadness and anguish you feel. It’s about how you get up back again. It’s about how the people around you supported and stayed with you through the times you were so down and when you’re in the brink of defeat (when He already won for you). I learned that struggles won’t end but I also noticed that at the end of each struggle, you’ll learn something in life and something about yourself. Great, I learned that I’m such  a wicked person.

Yes, a lot of you reading this who are close to me or know me personally might be surprised about me, saying that I’m such a wicked person. Honestly, I really am. Of course, I won’t let you see how crappy I am from the inside! You might not love me nor accept me as a person.

Isn’t it cool that most people can relate from one another’s troubles?

Anyway, sorry for a random question. This year, I learned this: “Each person has a story.” It made me relate with other people struggling. It made me think that, “Oh, yea. I’m not the only one who’s struggling. There are billions of people out there who are also problematic. It’s cool that God can manage to listen to our pleads and cries. He’s so patient.” That lesson made me realize that I am no better than you – all of you. It made me realize that everyone have their own past. I pray that God may lead me to the people who may understand me and my story.

I also learned from a close friend of mine that we must be grateful for this year. Yup, no matter what you’ve gone through. If you’re reading this and struggling with your faith in God, kudos to you, my brother! We can do this together. We can get through this mess. We may struggle for years, but remember that Someone already won the victory for us! Let it encourage us to go on through life. Don’t worry, I also came to a point wherein I was depressed for months (or maybe a year?) and asked God for answers yet no answers came. Stay faithful. Don’t let your struggles stop you from praying. If you need someone to talk to, approach those people you’re comfortable to open up with. 🙂

I thank God for this year even though most of the time, I looked at the darkest and negative sides of life. He taught me that looking and living in the darkness will only make me yearn for Him. And congratulations to me, I did yearn for Him. Haha~ I can’t say that I’m hoping for a better future because I’m becoming better as a person when I experience trials in life. It’s inevitable. All we have to do is to keep it together, have faith, and keep holding on to the One Who never leaves.

Happy 2014! 😉

Quote: To The Soul

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I Finally Signed In Again

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Back to my blog again. It’s December now. It’s weird. I’m not feeling Christmas-y. I even don’t want to celebrate my birthday for the first time when it will be my 18th. I wanted to celebrate mine months ago, but it sounded wrong. So I thought I wouldn’t celebrate it. It’s fine to celebrate it with my friends and family, but… I just don’t want it. I’m not sad about it. I’m not forcing my family to celebrate my 18th birthday. I simply don’t know the reason why I don’t want to celebrate it the way birthdays are celebrated by people.

I don’t know what to post. Take note, I post randomly. Sorry for not posting in my blog for long now. I’ll update this soon again before December ends.