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BOOKS :D

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As how I start a blog post that doesn’t have any topic, I shall share my thoughts recently or maybe share something about myself: what has happened to me lately, etc.

Since December 2013, I started to read the books I needed to finish (I guess we all have those kinds of books in our shelves… better finish them first before buying new books!), and gladly I was able to finish them one by one until the month of February. Allow me to share with you the titles and authors of the books* I have read (again) during the past few months:
*most of them are Christian and Christian Living books

1. Susanna Foth Aughtmon’s All I Need Is Jesus and a Good Pair of Jeans: The Tired Supergirl’s Search for Grace

2. Kelly Carr’s (she’s compiled the short stories/testimonies found in the book) Xtreme Calling

3. Mitch Albom’s The First Phone Call From Heaven

4. Joshua Harris’s Dug Down Deep: Unearthing What I Believe and Why It Matters

5. C.S. Lewis’s Chronicles of Narnia (Books 1-2) — don’t worry, I’ll soon read the rest of the books 😀

6. Ransom Riggs’s Miss Peregrine’s Home For Peculiar Children

7. Ayala Museum’s (there were certain writers and this is actually an exhibition in the Museum, but it’s mainly Ayala Museum, haha) Manga Realities: Exploring The Art of Japanese Comics Today

8. Dennis Edward Flake’s Loyal Macabebes: How The Americans Used the Macabebe Scouts in the Annexation of the Philippines (Well, this one is for a book review… school work LOL)

I’m not sure if I missed other books that I read (again). Now, I am currently reading D. Thomas Lancaster’s The Holy Epistle to the Galatians: Sermons on a Messianic Jewish Approach. It is very rich in deep information about the Galatians, and I really tried digging deeper into the book of Galatians because I found its words very crucial. It contains contradicting ideas about my beliefs, and this book helps a lot.

Without this post, I wouldn’t have noticed how slow I became in reading. Before, I can finish 2 books a month, but recently, because of semi-personal problems and issues, I slowed down in reading. I can only finish one book per month. But sometimes, it really depends upon the book. For example, one can finish a novel like that of Ransom Riggs in only two days. Haha. My first time, actually.

A couple of days ago, I started to read regularly again, and I am hoping to share more books that are worth the read soon in my future blog posts. 🙂

2014’s First Day

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January 01, 2014 and I cried half the day.

Do you know that feeling when you can’t stop crying over something, then starts thinking over a lot of things and cries over everything without you knowing? That’s what I’m feeling now. I still can’t stop crying because of a mix of emotions within me.

I became too fed up with one aspect of people: being judgmental. I know that it is wrong to judge and that you won’t be judged unless you did something for people to judge what you did or said but in the first place, “IT IS WRONG TO JUDGE“. I myself isn’t excused. I also judge. I am not exempted. I admit it. Unconsciously, I judge people too. And I also make the excuse: “Well, he/she is doing/saying something for him/her to be judged.” We don’t have the right to judge, anyway. We also make mistakes in some other way. Only He Who’s perfect has the right to judge us.

I cried everything to God in the van as my family and I went home from our relative’s house. I vented my anger towards God. Of course, I cried because I couldn’t take it anymore. My heart’s full of rage and sadness towards the people I care about when suddenly, God taught me a lesson:

“Never play with people’s emotions.”

I experienced it. It’s as if people were playing with what I really feel. We really have to be careful and think before speaking or doing something; whether it may be online or in real-life situations. I felt like you’d simply laugh over what you really feel yet deep inside, you’re screaming, “Please stop it. It’s getting too offensive.” I must admit that I take a lot of jokes very seriously. I even cry over some of those. I am aware that it’s a joke but most of the times, it gives a pang of hurt and offense in my heart.

Emotions are very dangerous. They can control you as a person. That’s why we need to have self-control to be able to control it; not overcoming us. About emotions, it’s cool that a lot of people have been opening up to me lately (5 people to be exact, and yes, they’re many for me). They’re not much of a close friend of mine but they chose to open up to me. I thank God for that. I realized that behind people’s courage, boldness, strength, happiness, joy, and laughter is a broken, sad, lonely, depressed and lost soul. I saw how people really need God in their lives.

As I cried to God, I noticed that it was my first cry over Him. Faith really helps us see the invisible (Heb. 11:1). I was comforted. I believe that He’s listening to me. I’m not crazy. Well, maybe yes because “Love makes us do crazy things”. Haha. God also taught me another thing, similar with what I typed in my post, “2013” (https://whoismaria.wordpress.com/2013/12/27/2013/):

“You need to understand people no matter what, even if they’re too annoying for you. Love is unfair. Learn “empathy”.”

God has been so patient with us. God has been so gracious towards us. He may know everything about us, from our deepest hidden sin in our hearts to our craziness but He loves us anyway. We may look very dirty as how we view ourselves but God views us differently; God views us “through a lens of mercy, love and compassion” (I forgot where I read this). And He keeps whispering, “You are loved, *insert your name here!”

Cheer up! Focus on God. Our identity is found only in Him.

P.S.: Sorry if this blog post became too random (?). It became a bit random for me because of a petty mix of ideas as I cried to God earlier.